For the New Year

Lord God of Universe

Bless me

Deliver me for worries and lukewarm indecisions

Protect me from harm, sadness, and pain

Fill my soul with joy

Give me wisdom

Give me strength

   And peace of mind. 

May your hand be always above me

   And your face shine upon me

All the days of my life. 

giving and receiving

"Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure-pressed down, shaken together, and running over. For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return."

Luke 6:38 

I think giving and making gifts can be just as a disease as the shopping addiction.

Some people go shopping when they feel bad, sad, down, depressed, or too lonely, or completely bored.

Giving can be just as a strong impulse. Difficult to control, slippery slope. 

I noticed that I cannot refrain myself to know that a friend would need something, or like something but cannot afford to have, or just to know that some item might bring joy to someone else. Making someone be happy reflects happiness and one can feed on it. 

I once read somewhere that giving creates more pleasure than receiving. And indeed it takes a lot of strength and courage to be at the end of receiving. And if anyone would know I know that, since I was for many years at the end of graciously and thankfully receiving.
I think it might be that time making me to give now even if are times when I should not afford and refrain myself. It is because I know exactly how thankful one can be when receiving. 

Hope for New Year

Hebrews 11:1 
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
Here I close the door of this old year and hopefully and faithfully opening the window of a brand New Year!
Call the family and friends, write to loved ones, or keep them in heart and thoughts with good wishes for a happy new year!
Make new year resolutions -- uselessly since I don't keep them. 
It is time to be faithful that hopes will come true, that the road of life will lead forward in joy and peace. 
Now it is time to hope for things unseen and have the faith that they will come true!

Cry to deaf ears

What should I do
with shattered hopes
and unresponded prayers?
When is no hope,
when is no faith,
no miracles can happen.
A broken heart,
a painful cry --
Do You hear our prayer?

The day after

Punishment that I deserve
to pay for sins
to cry out loud
and drink the cup
to empty.
Will never be the same
but after dying.

Like fishing net

Look behind and see
the search and struggle.
Each point in life
a knot
So many choices --
     strings in the life's
     fishing net.

The shadow

Like leaves in Fall
Our life is fading.
A time to grow
A time to die --
leaving behind
a shadow.

Change

Captive of my things
searching in a maze
to find my soul
when knowing where it is.
How hopeless one should be
to change the road?

Black sheep

Will tears help?
Can't change the past
Can only hope the future.
But choose the moment new.
Captive in this life
I sold my soul to things.
I lost the way...
Black sheep.

The lost

The lost road --
     when there is no return.
The lost time
     when is no time ahead.
The lost soul
      when crying out to God
Is there any salvation?

The net of life

Each step, a knot in the net
Each choice like a path to the road;
there is a way to go.
Risk -- to see what will come.
Next knot
there is another choice!

Don't carry the past in your backpack
the load
more than you can take.
Pack hope, and faith, and love.
Don't carry the pain.
Forgive and let heal.
Your eyes on the road
Your heart full of hope --
share it,
give always with love.

Sunday church

Sunday morning
breaking off
from the bed.
The hustle of morning
cars coming and going
speed rushing, impatient.
The bells are all ringing.
We go to plug in!
Cross off: Church, Faith
on Sunday's To Do list.
What do you say God?

Malfunction

This shell __
my body.
Malfunction in pain.
Should be a fix
to bring back what was
going so well.

Stuff

The feeling of guilt
to have
to be in a better place.
Fruits of hard work,
however.

Too many things
stuff around, useless.
What is the value__
the meaning
of life
of being
of having,
and having too much?!

Just a hobo myself

The rain
like little drums in the window --
cold and wet.
How many tonight
under the bridge,
in a corner,
soaked card boards,
freezing rain.
While under and between
dawn blankets...
How am I better
than them?
Just a hobo myself.

Choices

So many different ways
to live - another life.
What would have been
another choice?
Less freedom,
more wisdom,
or risk.
So different __
it would have been
another life!

Empty noise

There is a sadness in my heart,
for being restless in this life.
A life for to do;
busy running.
The noise
disturbing the peace __
like a nagging rain
in the darkness of the night.

Autumn

The colors of autumn
how wonderful creation
God's delight
for our eyes.

Crisp and cold air
Sunshine
translucid yellow leaves.
There is something
to say good bye, and
see you in the Spring!

Prodigal Son

What should I do
with my talents;
if I am stuck in a place.
To know is my blame,
my sins to forgive.
Like Prodigal Son __
I beg your forgiveness,
and ask again for
one more bright chance.

Heaven's connection

The surprise, the hope, and joy
The pain, the sorrow, and grief
Mary you lived them all
to be every woman's connection
to Heaven and God.