Reading 1


Casting all your care upon him; for he cares for you.
1 Peter 5: 7
I am a drop out. I registered to a seven weeks/Sunday afternoon "Jesus in your life" course  at my church. It was announced as a spiritual journey to find Jesus present in your life. It turned out to be a gentle social intro for newcomers to thinking about their faith. Interestingly as gentle as for someone who never read the Bible?.... and way too much social activity for my taste (chat some 15 minutes + food more than half hour), and too less reflection (we had half hour small group discussions, were 9 at the table, but based on the speakers' talk -- where the Bible?). I am a drop out, but promised that for the time of seven Sundays I will reflect on some Bible readings.
I have the Bible app on my phone and first I wanted to just follow a plan, but I guess I am not too good following others :-) 
So here it goes, I will just find interesting readings and think about.

This first reading 1 Peter 5: 7 struck me because several days ago I talked with a friend who lost her job after 13 years of working at the same place, and I was surprised (in fact I was astonished!), knowing that starting tomorrow she does not have a job, but she did not start even thinking, not say about searching, for a job. In her words "God will take care of me."
How quick I was to write her that I pray for her and she needs to remember that "God will give us, but we need to gather in the sack." How little faith I have! I need to do, fix, and care for things, forgetting that some are really not in my power. I focus so much on TO DO that I forget about TO BE.

I know that I could never be willingly a beggar, never live without doing something (given I am able to), and earning TO HAVE. To live from one day to the next is not for me -- I am about planning one year ahead.
Despite that I was tried and tested, so little did I learn. But should we really abandon ourselves completely to God's care? Is that in fact what we are asked in this passage? Are we asked to abandon trying and trust that other someone or God will care for us? Or is this only a message to cast out anxiety (which we know is futile), not helpful at all, since being anxious and worrying too much will not help anyhow a dire situation. But a calm and cool mind that drops the burden and takes a new position, adopts a new point of view, and trustfully believes that bad things can have a good turn out; and that today might be a bad one, but that does not mean tomorrow will be just as a crappy day. Cast all your cares, give them up or in to God. Trust that the Force of love and care that is in the world will be coming to help.

Is this 1 Peter 5: 7 the same as Matthew 6: 26 "Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?" 
The birds fly all day long and spend countless hours and energy to find food for themselves and their chicks. 
They don't make crops, but they search for them. Most of them make a good home (some are quite amazing and artistic in building their dwellings). The message here is not to just sit in the Sun and don't work!

But later I am told in Matthew 6: 34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

This seems to be a message to live for today, live in the present, do not be afraid for what tomorrow brings, for if you make a good today, then tomorrow shall be fine also. 
And if tomorrow is not a good one, then don't worry for what the day after will be, try hard to fix Today!
Be better concerned about TO BE in the here and now. Calm and cool, hopeful and happy.
Trusting that you are never alone, and even if no one cares, God does!

I think my translation sounds like this: 
"Cast all your anxieties upon Him; for He is concerned about you."

Glimpse in Taylor's life

 

Taylor's favorite pass time is to watch TV. And getting very crazy at all the cats and dogs in the commercials. Not speaking about that I never can watch any movies with horses or any kind of animals since she barks at the TV.
When she gets tired Taylor takes a nap.



But then gets her Texas Toothpicks and watches some more TV.




When she is tired of TV and naps then she likes to take a stroll on the trails at Locust Grove and check out all the wild life smells.



Happy Thanksgiving!!

Have a very Happy Thanksgiving!
I am thankful for my Parents and for Taylor, for good health, for my job, and friends, and for peace in the part of the world I live.
Life is good!

Thank be to God!

Heartbreaking movie

The Stoning of Soraya M.

It is a movie adapted from the best-seller book written by French-Iranian journalist Freidoune Sahebjam, adapted by Cyrus Nowrasteh.

Represents the Islamic law of stoning a woman who committed adultery. 
Based on a true story taking place in Iran. Falsely accused by her husband, who intends to marry instead a 14 year old girl, Soraya is tide, buried to waist, and stoned to death by men of her village, including her father, husband, and two sons.

It is a very powerful and extremely sad movie.

Steve Jobs

This week the world lost one great mind: Steve Jobs

Just think where the world would be if Steve Jobs would live 30-40 or more years.
The world of geeks and the rest of us will miss him.

One Apple in memoriam.
Rest in Peace!

First year at Marist

I am slowly closing the first year at Marist.

Working double duty almost day and night 7 days/week.
I effectively work 12-18 hours per day. And am at school many days 10 -12 hours.
I am waiting summer break!
I feel very very tired.

The Director of Graduate Programs part of my job, was more than I expected.
I am the sole academic advisor for 162 students, making study plans, planning each semester course schedule, finding instructors to teach, handling files for new applicants and interview them for admission (Fall 2011 adding more 37 of them), and all other program related matter (include weekly meetings).
Even if in the Fall I built up a database, in this Spring I still found mistakes in student registrations, files, and I still struggle with students who effectively don't follow any study plan (because that is how they did it in the past). I constantly try to revise the database when there is always some student who registers for a class just because it fits better in the night when s/he likes it better to come to school; instead of the one in the study plan. Of course they don't let me know, I have to find out when I match reports and my database. Or the student does not register at all and does not bother to tell me either.... Lots of administrative busy time; and many things that could be very well avoided if students would be more responsible (in the end are grad students not freshman). But might be I expect too much.
Just as my students, in the courses I teach, told me that I have high expectations from them  :-)

Plus that I am full-time tenure track faculty who needs to do research, publish or perish, teach, and do service. That's why most of the time my bed time is always after midnight closer to 1 or 2 or 3am.

A lot on a single plate.

Where are you RPI?
Greener grass always from a distance.....
I miss my friends from RPI, my good friends from SIUE and most of all my house with doggy door and fenced yard in Edwardsville (Taylor seconds me on the later).
:-)

Spring 2011

This week that is almost ending was supposed to be my Spring break.
Well, I can say it started to be Spring today.... on the other hand I can ask: "what break?"

I have a long list here on the floor, piles of papers, readings, books, and the list does not have so far too many things crossed out.
I did finish my AERA paper and uploaded it (last day deadline); I also completed the readings I planned (except one chapter for next week's class (but Thursday is far away); responded to tons of emails and gave some feedback to students; had car fix, and Taylor vet appointment/shots.
Finished scoring some protocols for two projects, and started conducting the interviews for the third project.

And there are other 21 things still on the list.
Yes, it was only one week this break.
I am so tried I really need a break!

But today was 70F and I took Taylor for a long 30 min walk and she was so happy that made up for the Spring break.

Next break starts May.

Taylor @ 7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAYLOR!!!


Taylor is 7 years old today!
I cannot believe Taylor and I spent seven years moving from Tucson, Edwardsville, Troy, and now Poughkeepsie.
What a little fighter is Taylor, even if she hates moving and hates cold.

Unfortunately she has more often seizures, now at 2-3 weeks one (instead of 3-4 months as in past).
She is getting older.

Otherwise, she is just as spoiled and ready to kill the squeaker in any toy. Focused on treats :-)








End Year 2010 -- Happy New Year 2011!









Year end.... we survived a move, a hectic Fall semester, and getting used to live in a very small place.
Despite the small apartment Poughkeepsie is a nice place otherwise. 
We are close to IBM and Locust Grove --- two good places to walk and run with Taylor. Locus Grove is a summer walk but winter we walk in the Plaza and on IBM campus.

This Fall 2010 I felt as having a full time administrative job and on top of it a tenure-track faculty position.
I worked very hard and very long long hours, even 14-18 ours/day.  Lack of sleep and exhaustion made my heart beat irregularly, but all is fine, I just need to sleep 8 hours/day and take it a bit easy.
2011 is between me and 50! Which I am approaching very fast. 







Taylor got a puzzle toy for Christmas, from Sharon our friend in Tucson. She learned it very fast, she for sure is a smart dog!
I showed her only twice what she needs to do.
Take out the bone nails first, then move around the veges and underneath she will find treats :-)
Smart Taylor! 
Anca came to spend Christmas with us, we went to after Christmas shopping, and then we had a blizzard like Siberia. 

This Fall I decided to go back to horse back riding classes which I very much love.

Hope for a great 2011!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Start again





I find it very interesting that in this past year since I was at RPI (all 2009-till August 2010), I have learned so much about teaching and learning, assessment and accreditation. Oddly it feels like I have spent a sabbatical year concentrating on learning and assessment issues.
Is interesting that by not teaching for three semesters, Spring and Fall of 2009 and Spring 2010, I had the opportunity to learn about teaching! I had more time to read about teaching, to think about teaching, and talk with other faculty about teaching and assessment issues.
I see now the accreditation issue from two points of view: faculty and administration.
I found that by taking this "time off from teaching" I became a better teacher! I had more time to think and reflect about education issues. I feel rejuvenated, enriched, and I know "what I want to be when I grow up" --- yes, I am a teacher!
In Spring 2009 it was weird to not have to prepare my syllabus and notes for the semester. I felt as if I go "cold turkey," it was for me a complete withdrawal from the teaching bug. I thought it will pass, but it just repeated and intensified in Fall 2009, and then Spring 2010. I do not think it will go away. I missed the students, I missed sharing my knowledge and learning in the process of a semester course. This year I learned who I am and who I want to be.
I know so much more about student learning, motivation, teaching, assessment, accreditation, and educational research. This year at RPI was a great one because I learned a LOT!!
I am looking forward to the future!
New beginnings are always exciting, and I start full of hope at Marist College. :-)

Good bye Scout




My friend Sharon in Tucson, AZ had to say Good bye to her second Jack Russell Terrier: Scout.
Scout was my favorite, he was a very sweet dog and Taylor loved him as well.
Sharon lost Siegfried her other JRT and now Scout.
Is heart breaking.



We will miss you Scout!

Anca -- Boston

We went Friday May 7th, to Boston to wish Anca my friend a very Happy Birthday!!
We stopped to see MIT and Public Gardens.

Taylor loved the walk and squirrels in Public Garden.
But then Saturday was raining heavily and we returned home, at 44F and high wind and rain.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY Anca!!!!!

AERA in Denver, CO

I was at AERA conference in Denver, CO.
April 30- May 4, 2010.

I had altitude sickness :-(

Didn't go too much sight seeing. But I took some pics in downtown where the conference was.

Big bear looking in the Convention Center window is so cute!!
Met with friends from UA and SIUE and other ones from SIGs and acquaintances...