Stuff

The feeling of guilt
to have
to be in a better place.
Fruits of hard work,
however.

Too many things
stuff around, useless.
What is the value__
the meaning
of life
of being
of having,
and having too much?!

Just a hobo myself

The rain
like little drums in the window --
cold and wet.
How many tonight
under the bridge,
in a corner,
soaked card boards,
freezing rain.
While under and between
dawn blankets...
How am I better
than them?
Just a hobo myself.

Choices

So many different ways
to live - another life.
What would have been
another choice?
Less freedom,
more wisdom,
or risk.
So different __
it would have been
another life!

Empty noise

There is a sadness in my heart,
for being restless in this life.
A life for to do;
busy running.
The noise
disturbing the peace __
like a nagging rain
in the darkness of the night.

Autumn

The colors of autumn
how wonderful creation
God's delight
for our eyes.

Crisp and cold air
Sunshine
translucid yellow leaves.
There is something
to say good bye, and
see you in the Spring!

Prodigal Son

What should I do
with my talents;
if I am stuck in a place.
To know is my blame,
my sins to forgive.
Like Prodigal Son __
I beg your forgiveness,
and ask again for
one more bright chance.

Heaven's connection

The surprise, the hope, and joy
The pain, the sorrow, and grief
Mary you lived them all
to be every woman's connection
to Heaven and God.

The pain of mothers

Nothing is more precious
than little hands rising to embrace.
How happy were you Mary
cuddling your Son.
How painful seeing Him
embrace the heavy cross.
To loose him
To understand, the pain of mothers
with their children lost.

Hope

The things not known
The Hope not seen
The weakest faith
a glimpse of what could be...
Surrender in God's will
and hope against Hope.

Not meant to be

Hope
for things not yet seen,
Just let it go!
If did not come to real --
was never meant to be.

Good Friday

There is no hope in my soul
No strength to cry out loud to
         God, my Lord.
No faith, no miracles to trust in.
Just empty heart
        a barren soul
gently offered to God
as ultimate act of Love.
It is finished.
Amen.

To let go

Time cannot come back
Of all that is lost -
none will ever return.
To let it go -
       easy to say.
Like putting a burden to ground.
Accept it -- let go.
The burden of pain.

Near dawn

To hope and trust
To ask and wait
and let it go
all of old.
The pain be gone
The dawn of tomorrow
      is near...

Can you hear me?

What kind of nature in other Heavens
based on faith only.
How are your days?
What do you do?
How far or close?
When we cry out -
can you hear us?

Like little ones

Without worry
like children,
like little white dogs
      sniffing in grass and yellow flowers.
Knowing that God is in control.
To trust and hope,
        believe, and let it go!

Faith

It is not in the oil
rather is in Faith,
          in Hope, and Love
that we can find the courage
         and strength to go on.
All Saints, and all who still believe - to help us.

To find in our weakness
the limits of that Knowledge,
a glimpse of understanding.
The rest all melts in God's mercy and love.

Her voice

If I would just have
as much faith
Like the old Lady
singing from top of her lungs
in front of the Virgin
Her voice
    so loving
    so pure
    so faithful...

Like tinsel

White garments in golden

         tinsel-like margins

So pure and clean

So honored

So simple

Mother of God

            of Mercy and Grace

Hear our prayer. 

Readings 17

"If we confess our sins, 

He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins 

and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

1 John 1:9

Time of lent is always time for repentance.

Pope Bendict XVI has shown us what humility and meekness means. He was humble and taught us what Jesus was asking: Do not think you are better than the other and know that you are the servant of all.

I have the tendency to think and act as if I would know better than the other. I also have a hard time accepting that I am wrong.

Often times I correct the others and have no patience to listen and wait till they finish their talk.

A good lesson in humility and thankfulness that god loves me no matter what!

Readings 16

"There was a certain man without a dependent, having neither a son nor a brother, yet there was no end to all his labor. Indeed, his eyes were not satisfied with riches and he never asked, "And for whom am I laboring and depriving myself of pleasure?" This too is vanity and it is a grievous task."

Ecclesiastes 4:8

There is one month since my last post when I was talking about that there is a time to be well and a time to be sick. The next day 1/11 a Friday I was hit by the flu! It was long, miserable, painful, and still continue with sinus and ear infection. Ha, there is a time for everything....isn't it?

Today's quote is also from my favorite book from New Testament, Ecclesiastes. So much for all the toil and sweat in work, the white and long work nights, and the weeks that seem to be a marathon of labor, and not personal time, no unplug from the work till one has dreams about the work being late and wakes up in panic.

A friend of mine gave me for Christmas Getting Things Done – The Art of Stress-Free Productivity, by David Allen (2001). Started reading it then but did not get to finish it. I am mid way through and so far ALL that the author says I do, but I still work 60-hour weeks and am behind always and stressed.

What for? 

This too is vanity and it is chasing of the wind!